(Oct. 23, 2015 3:58 AM)Tri Wrote: Before I even start this post, I want to throw out the disclaimer that this is not meant to be a sob story or an attention-seeking-sympathy story. This is why I am so torn between staying on the site or not. Here it goes …
I have sever anxiety. I'm not talking about the stereotypical teenage feeling of anxiety, I'm saying that I was diagnosed with sever anxiety and depression earlier this year. I was put on an antidepressant, but I no longer take them due to the suicidal thoughts they caused me. I take everything to heart. I have mental breakdowns for something as simple as dropping my phone, which leads to me looking at the way my life has played out the past years, and so forth. I've been on this rough path for a while and I've had to cope with it, hide it, and make sure I didn't do anything permanent to myself.
With how my brain works, I always have the feeling I am looked over. I can explain it in no better way. I feel so unimportant to everyone about everything. It's like I'm a broken bulb and everyone else is fluorescent. I feel like I've missed my chance at opportunities to do something great for the WBO so many times. The reason I used to try so hard on here was because I felt like I had nothing to do in the real world. Nothing. That's how I see myself.
Immature right? Well, I can't help how I feel. I really can NOT. I have been a member for almost 4 years. I love so many people on this site and to see everyone I "grew" with on here achieve more than I did put lot of stress on me. I don't know what to do anymore guys. I'm torn by a message board about spinning tops, aka my childhood. I just hope you all understand what I am saying. I just want my head to be understood by more than just one person, who isn't even me.
I have had similar feelings in this community (and others) for a long time, Tri. Sure, I might have my fancy italicized username and a couple of cool faces, but I don't think my contributions will ever stack up to the likes of Ingulit or TBD. I've always looked up to those two as role models of an excellent, active, productive community member - first Ingulit as someone who logically and scientifically analyzes and tests combos, and isn't afraid to try goofy stuff - and later TheBlackDragon, as a "me that could have been"; TBD joined the WBO fairly late into MFB's life cycle, but still proceeded to leap into action, learning and testing at an incredible rate that quickly made him one of the biggest contributors ever to the MFB metagame. I never really was able to do much testing - I just can't afford to buy the new parts every time something comes out, and I still don't really have everything I need to be competitive. I don't even have two Wyvangs or the Rose Gold face yet. So as I watched this member go from being the new guy to being a highly respected and generally awesome member of the community, I felt guilty and honestly pretty envious. In my first year I managed to bumble around the forums and do nothing of consequence, while TheBlackDragon goes off and does all sorts of cool stuff in his first year. I still kind of feel like I haven't tried hard enough, haven't spent enough time doing things for the WBO, and I'm really experiencing a lot of the same old feelings now that Burst is starting up - I just can't afford to buy tons of new parts that will just be outclassed in a few months anyways. Burst's wearing issues doesn't improve things, either.
But the thing I've found to be most important, both on these forums and in real life, is that in the end, it doesn't matter if you're the most prolific tester, article writer, tournament host, or whatever. I don't have to be the best at something to have value, and the little contributions that I do make still matter to the people I've helped. No matter how much time or effort you have dedicated to this community, take pride in what you
have done, even if it's not as impressive as the accomplishments of others.
I nearly cried while trying to write this, jeez. Being content with my accomplishments has been one of the hardest lessons I have learned, and has become even more important now that I'm in college. As you get into higher levels of study, and begin to work your way among the ranks of more skilled people, there will be more and more times where, to quote one of my engineering profs, "you feel like you are the dumbest person in the room". Whether you actually are the dumbest one, or even if you are the smartest one, is irrelevant. Everyone can make a useful contribution, and everyone should take pride in good work.
If you love this community, and enjoy the experience the WBO provides, I think you should stay. Try not to feel too pressured by the accomplishments of others; no one will look down on you because you don't have enough testing threads, or haven't won enough battles. Encourage others, be impressed with their successes, but don't worry about not being in the spotlight. External praise is just a bonus, not a requirement - remain happy and content with yourself, and that's all the recognition you need.
Current list of future possible usernames:
Muffin
Pie
Wonderbread Man
The Cake Meister
Cornwalis
Meliodas
bakerycakepies
freshccdumpseuro
gOodCHeepDealzz&dUmppzz
TheCakeIsALie
MY FOOD
Michael Bay
Abe Simpson
Victoria Justice
Carl Carlson
Bae Brad
ccdump.work
Parts and combos
Parts: (Out of date again)
Metal Wheels:
Bakushin
Burn x2
Cyclone
Death
Diablo
Divine
Earth
Fury
Galaxy
Gravity x3
Hell x3
Inferno
Jade
Kries
L-Drago Destroy
Libra
Lightning
Pegasus
Phantom x2
Poison
Screw
Thermal
Vulcan
Clay (all by itself cuz it sux)
Chrome Wheels:
Bahamidia
Balro
Begirados x2
Dragooon
Genbull x2
Girago
Goriem x2
Gryph x2
Ifraid
Killerken
Phoenic
Revizer x2
Saramanda
Wyvang
Clear Wheels:
Aquario
Beelzeb x2
Cancer x2
Capricorn x2
Cetus
Crown
Cygnus
Horogium
Horuseus x2
Jupiter
Kerbecs x2
Lacerta
Leone
Orion x2
Pegasus II
Pegasus III
Pisces
Quetzalcoatl
Sagittario x2
Sagittario II
Scorpio
Virgo
Wolf
Crystal Wheels:
Bandid
Berserker x2
Dark Knight
Gladiator
Guardian
Samurai x2
Shinobi x2
Theif x2
Tracks:
85 x2
90 x2
100 x2
105
CH120
125 x2
T125 x2
D125
130 x2
WA130 x2
S130
145 x3
W145 x2
Ad145
C145
ED145
WD145
UW145
SW145
TR145
GB145
BD145
160 x2
SA165
SR200 x2
230
F230
A230
E230
SP230
Tips:
B
BS
BWD x2
CF x2
CS
D
DS
EDS
EWD
FS
GCF
GF
HF x3
JSB
MF
RB
RDF
RF x2
R2F
RS x3
RSF
S x2
SB x2
SD x2
SWD
TB x2
WB
WD x4
WSF
W2D
XF x3
4D bottoms:
Combos: (Standard)
MSF-H Genbull Genbull 85RSF
Balro Begirados 100RF
Girago Genbull E230CS
MSF-H Wyvang Ifraid GB145RF
Girago Dragooon SA165 (Attack) W2D
Combos: (Limited)
MF-H Lightning L-Drago 85RB (Aggro)
MF-H Jade Horogium 85RSF
MF-H Earth Cygnus TR145RSF
Ronin Genbull (Crystal Up) 85RF
Burn Orion 85MF
Burn Cygnus 85WD
Earth Pegasus II ED145WD
Funny (or just out of context) quotes:
(Oct. 21, 2011 1:59 AM)Hazel Wrote: I am not intelligent, simply capable of memorizing information and vomitting it back up in an eloquent fashion.
BlitzUnicornio3 Wrote:Balro Balro puts up a good fight, it just loses every time.
(Aug. 03, 2013 6:40 PM)Kai Hiwatari Wrote: Yes, but hasbro typically does unexpected things that are bad though.
(Aug. 11, 2013 8:56 AM)DrPepsidew Wrote: Red is an icky color.
(Aug. 23, 2013 9:36 PM)Akio314 Wrote: Kick'm in the shins if you see him again! Both shins 50 times! Violence is the best way to promote peace!
(Aug. 29, 2013 4:33 AM)Ultramarine Wrote: Grab your pitchforks, it's mob time!
(Aug. 29, 2013 4:33 AM)Ultramarine Wrote: I'm going to beat up an innocent XTS top now...
(Aug. 29, 2013 8:42 PM)rkalajian Wrote: So today I just got in the Octogon Battle Set from the BeyWarriors line...
It's just NOT good. The stadium is pretty cool, but I couldn't hate the BeyWarriors more. They spin horribly, and the battles are like to people spinning around while slapping each other with fish. It just doesn't feel as exciting, and has a WAY less powerful feel that regular Beys.
Bleh...
Ultramarine Wrote:Revizer offers as much smash as I do free puppies. There's a reason it's top tier in defence.
(Sep. 28, 2013 10:16 PM)Ultramarine Wrote: On the way back to school after a cross country meet, my friend and I argued for the whole 1 hour 33 minute bus ride. The whole thing.
The argument? Whether this stick I had was called THE stick or A stick. Our arguments took various tangents such as algebra, luck, happiness, and English class. It was the weirdest argument I've had in awhile.
(Sep. 29, 2013 3:19 AM)Ultramarine Wrote: Just a warning, I'm a living freakshow.
(Oct. 01, 2013 10:37 PM)Dark_Mousy Wrote: (Oct. 01, 2013 8:39 PM)Stars Wrote: So Dark why did you use GCF then CF? CF had a better LAD it less likely to Self KO
I uswd cf at the event because it looked pretty on f230.
(Oct. 03, 2013 6:55 AM)OwnageDerp Wrote: Wasn't there text here before?
(Sep. 29, 2013 5:31 PM)Hazel Wrote: Octodad is always watching.
(Feb. 03, 2014 8:19 PM)Dual Wrote: a polar bear smoothie sounds great right about now
(Apr. 02, 2014 2:06 AM)Ray Sagittario Wrote: Your all nuts!
(Apr. 01, 2014 8:40 PM)TheBlackDragon Wrote: You came on the wrong day
(Jun. 20, 2014 11:57 PM)OwnageDerp Wrote: You live in the UK... I thought burglary was only in the US!
(Dec. 12, 2014 4:25 AM)BURGER KING Wrote: If you start craving raw meat and start getting very hairy, your probably being genetically mutated by that ice cream. Better hope it's not a full moon.
(Dec. 28, 2014 11:14 AM)earthwolf1404 Wrote: I was bit by a llama yesterday. I think I'll be okay, as long as I'm not near anyone on a full moon.
(Dec. 19, 2010 12:23 PM)spectrobes geo Wrote: once opon a time a 13 year old boy named masunne.
(Jan. 29, 2015 2:56 AM)Wombat Wrote: (Jan. 29, 2015 2:38 AM)AÉ´É¢Ê€Ê Fᴀᴄᴇ Wrote: @[The Supreme One] Soul Baez V145AS
That's one fine looking Bottom.
(Feb. 01, 2015 1:26 AM)Wizard Wrote: (Jan. 31, 2015 8:22 PM)Leone19 Wrote: With Beyblade going on another hiatus, it's a shame to see remaining active members bicker over small things.
I understand, we're all a little annoyed, so might I enlighten all of you with some holy text written by the wise men of the olden days.
And on the 423rd day there was a flash in the sky, and a legendary bey came down like fire from the heavens. And that bey was called Pegasis, and it meant the end of the terrible hiatus that had plagued our kind for so long. And with that bey came a new hero, and that hero was named Ginga. And with his bey in hand he paved the way into the new era of beyblade. - Takao 3:16
Brothers, just as the wise man of old wrote about a new hero, I promise you that yet another is coming!
(Mar. 21, 2015 10:20 PM)Tri Wrote: idk how to explain it honestly im dumb as mud
(Mar. 23, 2015 4:08 AM)Neo Wrote: i cant wait until bomb some dodongos day
(Jun. 01, 2015 11:52 PM)MissingNo. Wrote: (Jun. 01, 2015 10:26 PM)Bey Brad Wrote: like i'm gonna trust the dude with 11 cancer faces
he'll give you cancer
(Jul. 13, 2015 5:25 AM)Bey Brad Wrote: I can't believe there's a 40 page thread discussing usernames. You're all insane.
(Aug. 13, 2015 7:24 PM)Bey Brad Wrote: Mercury Anubis is strong and will hold you in his muscular metal arms at night
(Sep. 11, 2015 10:33 PM)Tri Wrote: "bruh whats dat gem on ur kicks"
"pegasis 145rf"
(Dec. 05, 2015 3:17 AM)Mega L-Drago 24 Wrote: Have fun and remember from space Earth lookes like a giant beystadium
(Jan. 12, 2016 5:45 AM)Bey Brad Wrote: TAKE THEM OFF
(Jun. 02, 2016 2:46 AM)Neo Wrote: My first Pokemon, my favorite, and easily the most sentimental.
AWEASOME FIRRE CHIKEN MAN ON FIREEFIRE FIGHTS THE DUDES BEATS EM STUPID MONKEY AND PIG TRYNA COPY THIS BA CHIKENN DUDE WITH WRISTS ON FIREEEEEEFIREEEEE
I'm so sorry.
(Jul. 27, 2016 1:33 AM)Hato Wrote: (Jul. 27, 2016 1:27 AM)NEET no Kami Wrote: i definitely don't remember learning about that in religious studies.
But wasn't it in Exodus 14:21?
The Bible Wrote:"Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea; and L-DRAGO swept the sea back with a strong special move all night and turned the sea into dry land, so the waters were divided"
(Mar. 03, 2017 4:17 PM)Kai-V Wrote: Evil is very bad though... There is just nothing good to do with it.