
(May. 13, 2021 1:02 AM)XSabxManiacX Wrote: Chapter 3: Daigo Kurogami
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Let this be a story born from emotions and morals. Let this be a lesson to all. Let us see this story as we do with the supernatural: It does not matter if it is true or false.
The only thing that matters is that the little boy’s character is in all of us. That we all have to overcome this terrible feeling. That maybe, apologizing and confessing is the best way to go. Don’t ask if the character is based on me, someone I knew, or whoever comes to your mind. That’s a foolish question that can’t be answered.
How many pieces of zombie media have you come across and know about? How many zombie apocalypse origins have you found? The assumed answer is plenty of them, perhaps. One movie might have showed zombies starting off as a creation from aliens. Or there was a a fungus that controlled the minds of humans. Or a very contagious disease. The possibility of what caused zombies to come around in media is so vast and endless. So many explanations and forms.
The creation of guilt is like the creation of a zombie. To many people, the reason their guilt came about can be different from others. You should try asking what strain of weakness plagues them — did they feel guilt because they made a mistake, a bad judgement, or couldn’t do enough for someone? It’s different in everyone, I suppose. Just like everyone’s different theories on what would make zombies.
Then came this little boy. Guilt had turned him into a zombie of some sorts — he was a lot more quiet and seemed sad. His eyes seemed to be hooded in an ominous and somber way. He seemed like a zombie in a way that he had an eerie stillness to him. The little boy just wasn’t quite the same.
Well, what did he do? He wronged someone, plain as day. He did something that he shouldn’t have done. No one knew about except him. But if no one knew, then he would never be caught. He could have left it at that, yet the guilt had already turned him into a zombie.
It grasped him lightly at first. From the moment he wronged someone, he knew that his soul wasn’t quite the same. He told himself, It’s okay. I’m still find. But was he really fine? No.
It felt like his soul chipped a little. Just that one little change, yet it impacted him in a way he couldn’t describe at first. No biggie at first, because it could recover the next day. Right?
Not really.
The next day, it felt as if his soul had turned a little heavier. He felt like keeping it healthy and whole became a new responsibility for him. He could tell, because the moment he woke up, he felt like going back to sleep. The little boy then felt like he lost his great sense of responsibility. If he couldn’t force himself out of bed, then what could he do?
The human body does not react well to doing things it does not want to be doing. The brain starts to stress upon looking at the homework’s first math problem. The legs start to give out during gym class. The eyes just want to be closed in order to sleep again. To the little boy, getting out of bed today was a huge chore. His sense of body control seemed too far away.
“I’m okay,” he insisted. He managed to gather the courage to get out of his bed. Now he needed to get his belongings.
The mind also shut down a tiny bit, even if he did not want to grasp it. His Beyblade, lying on his desk, seemed to be a distant figure. He looked at his partner and couldn’t seem to react normally. It felt like he forgot that he liked Beyblade.
Was this the price of wronging someone? The curse of gradually abandoning your favorite thing? Or losing sense of yourself?
Without thinking, the little boy got his Beyblade and prepared to bring it along. That’s what he often did, after all. It was by design that he often carried his favorite object around, regardless of his emotions.
And this was the Beyblade that was with him when he wronged someone — the cursed little thing he won the battle with. Even though the Beyblade seemed distant, when he glanced at it again, he saw flashes of his terrible deed. The memories shot by like bullets.
“I’m okay,” he told his partner, even if the object couldn’t acknowledge it back.
But those were just empty words, as far as the back of his head knew. The weight of his Beyblade in his pocket felt like a curse — it weighed him down as much as his backpack. The Beyblade seemed to be hindering him, having lost its positive aura. It once cheered him up, but now it only seemed to serve as a terrible memory.
Very similar to the phenomenon with the Beyblade, the little boy eventually felt the same energy sapped out from other objects. Holding a toothbrush felt meaningless now. The taste of breakfast seemed bland. The schoolwork he did before — and was so proud of for finishing before bed — did not provoke pride from him.
Was this the price of wronging someone? For the guilt to bubble up and leach all of your motivation and appreciation away? The little boy could hear from the back of his head, Now you could spend all of your energy thinking about yourself.
And that’s what he ended up doing, because nothing else seemed to matter. Everything now revolved around the amazing sacrifice he did to win a Beybattle. And the guilt stole all of his old self and replaced it with a zombie husk.
And eventually the little boy’s sense of time had stopped.
No grasp of numbers in his head. Just wondering if he could have done something else instead of wronging someone.
The little boy could hardly look at his Beyblade without hurting himself with the memories. At first, the guilt made him see the Beyblade as a needless object. But for some reason, it now emitted a terrible energy. It seemed to criticize his actions and individuality.
It called him weak.
It called him a nobody.
It called him selfish.
It laughed at him.
The little boy could have lived without telling a soul. He could have continued to be the wonderful Blader. He could’ve lived normally and in a good state. But — obviously — the guilt was eating away at him and destroying his individuality.
And before he knew it, it felt as if the winds picked him up or there were strings controlling him. His mind, having rotten like a zombie’s, knew nothing except one thing: He wronged someone, plain as day. That’s all he knew. He didn’t know how long the guilt clung onto him, or how many people noticed how odd he seemed to be. All he knew was that he wronged someone.
Like a zombie, he instinctively walked to where he needed to. He didn’t think about the outcome or how the said someone would react to it. With no sense of time and his grayscale view of the world, his mind was only bent on one thing: He needed to apologize. He needed to tell the wronged person or else he would be completely eaten alive by the guilt.
He kept walking.
He continued to walk.
His soul felt even heavier. So heavy, he could have collapsed right there and sink into the earth. He wouldn’t even have known that he collapsed right there.
He blinked again.
He suddenly saw the person he had wronged. In just a blink, he was already there...
And the moment the confession and apology came out of his mouth, all the colors in the world came back to his sight. Most of the guilt stopped gnawing on his mind and his conscience snapped awake. The little boy had the most terrible realization: He was a person all along. A person capable of apologizing, not a zombie who was controlled by guilt and fear. A person who — like any other — was capable of good.
And when the life came back to him, the person he wronged started to yell at him. That’s when the little boy felt like a failure again.
Ok this is amazing. I have a few requests. One for Lui, one for Phi, and one for Hearts. Phi would likely be the top priority if allowed, but its your call. Don’t have to do any of them.