i guess it wouldn't hurt to tell one.
"its not as strange as it was sad, pretty long"
i started beyblading in Jr high, and i have this memory loss over years i forget alot. well over time i forgot what happen at that school, i read a story of a returning so as promised i decided to go back hoping to jolt my memories back because i wanted to know the truth about something.
i sat in the back of my moms infinity FX 35 looking out the window, we had just arrived at the school for them to drop me off. i sat back realizing there was alot more cars and kids around for me to be snooping around, why where kids even in school right now school was out. i would rather not go out when people are around. so i asked my parents if it was possible to drop me off at the high school it ended at. maybe I'll wait there. they where talking it over when i looked out the window realizing a young boy staring at me. i wondered if it was even possible he could see me though the tinting of the windows. but he stood there smiling at me. after staring for abit i noticed he looked alot like me when i was in Jr high. maybe it was better to do this another day. i turned to my parents telling them forget it lets just go. wile we pulled away i looked back to see the boy waving, "odd"
wile we where driving along it didn't take long when a storm it, fog covered the roads so badly and just as it had come it was suddenly gone and all i could see was the perfect blue. my wonders where for filled when we plummeted into what was the sky and the ocean and the car began to sink. when the water filled up higher and higher to the point i could no longer see the sky it was fear. more then fear i regretted it all. i wanted to reverse it all turn back maybe fates would have been better. it was then i prayed i could go back in time to change this. why was this happening. as we sank deeper i looked out my window seeing all these other cars that where in the ocean as well. i took a deep breath because by this time i had to face reality, we where going to die. my heart was heavy it was then i felt a hand on my shoulder, it was my mom, she didn't face me but it was like she was telling me it was OK. it wasn't OK, i wondered in my mind how it would feel for my sisters to lose their parents and younger brother at the same time. my last thought as i looked at what was to be black sea, when will we hit the bottom and die.
i have weird dreams but i think this one was the one that i never felt so much emotion and question in it all one night. i never even knew i could have so much regret in a dream as i had in this one, to turn back time wile your sinking to your death, its reality. things happen that we cant change no matter how much we wish, pray, or try to change it. its sad to think about. its sad for me because it felt so real.
"I kept it all, even though I knew I was never going to return."
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