It is a very depressing topic and I am so sorry to hear about your loss!
I lost my father, two cousins and a co worker February 20th 2014. I nearly lost my sister that same day too!
The only recent death was the death of my siberian husky Diesel who died in an accident. Regardless I'm still going through the troubles of accepting the ordeal of the loss of half my family in one day by the grudge of a single person.
I don't know what it's like losing anybody by sickness or accidents. Things that happen everyday. I'm sure I would be sad but my family was taken from me so I'm not just sad, I'm mad, hateful, regretful and confused. Its a weird subject for me. Usually people try to get me to open up about it but I'm just lame when I do. I come off as careless and heartless because I can't express it. It's a war I fight everyday and every night because i can still see and hear them. It's a day I have to live with for the rest of my life!
Everybody has a different way of moving on, but the truth is.....you never truly move on. I never got closure from my father. So I think some how in my mind I have to remind myself that he's never coming back. The sad part about my family; it tore us apart and there's no guarantee that we will ever be a family again.
That's my sob story.
"I kept it all, even though I knew I was never going to return."
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