Teikger Wrote:PRINCEcharming Wrote:Tamer Brad Wrote:Alice Wrote:Applied for a new job through an employment agency today - more money, better hours, no working with the public (thank piss) and I get to work with one of my best friends! I hope to carp that I get it.
I also went to the doctors yesterday and it looks like I have Generalised Anxiety Disorder. LAAAAME.
My friend Joe has it, though it was called "General Worry Disorder" which is about the funniest name you can give to a disorder.
I think I have a social anxiety disorder, but I don't want to go see a doctor.
What exactly is that..?
You can't be around people..?
Kind of. I don't have a problem with being around other people, once I'm comfortable with them.
It's generally new situations, people I don't know, or ambiguous situations.
The panic attacks suck all kinds of carp. A few months back I woke up in the middle of the night scared for my life, and I couldn't shake the idea that I would turn up to work the next day and everyone there would hate me. When I say scared, I mean leatherface standing over you revving his chainsaw inches from your face and screaming at you scared.
The worst part is that there is no way to reason out of the feeling. I knew it was totally unrealistic, stupid even, to think that, but the fear of being socially excluded and judged negatively persisted.
One time in primary school, I was 7, I had to go to another classroom to ask if they had any spare pencils. It took me soemthing like 20 minutes to work up the balls to knock on the door.
One thing of note, I don't have a problem with a professional relationship, like speaking to customers on the phone, or when I worked on the checkouts at a supermarket.
Then again, I tend to judge most customers in a very negative fashion. Most people I've spoken to while at work have been complete morons.